Walk with me?

Karma?

yes karma bitches.

Are you even for real?

If you are, i'm happy
If your not, then i'll just stfu.

But i really do appreciate the things that u've done.
Whether or not your sincere
You were being very honest thank you.
I just thought that, maybe it is not the right time.
But clearly i dont even know what you were going through.
I dont even know if you really think about this.
Basically, there are too many question marks here.
That i dont even wanna ask you.
Cos I have my doubts.
I'm sorry for not being truthful to you as well.
I'm such a dickhead i know
Or maybe just being egoistical?
Or maybe just being a plain pussy. afraid of everything.
I know you cant always be the one initiating.
But somehow its even harder for me to do what i feel like doing.
To think of the possibilities is already pretty fcuked up.
The people that will get hurt, lets not go there...
So even if i wish i could, conscience will disrupt me over and over again
I dont wanna repeat the same mistakes that i did
I dont wanna go through hell again
One thing i know, * ** ******** ** **** **** ****.
And again, no one can possibly talk me into this anymore.
Absolutely no one.
Dont even ask me about it.
Say hello to goodbye stupido.

X X X

xoxo
I M N S

I'm Sorry, but then again, its just a fucking word.

Hard as I try I know I cant quit, something about you is so addictive.

Leave,

It might not seem like the right thing to do

But I think its better this way.

You might think i'm stupid.

But come on, you're not perfect either.

Mistakes are part of everyones life no?

So lemme be the dumbfuck this time.

I dont need reasons to back myself up all the time.

p/s: you have no idea how stupid i felt when the whole world knows and i dont.AND You have no idea how dumb i felt when i heard THAT name.

Now thanks alot. That fucking made my day.

So yes, fuck this shit. i'm out.

I'm sorry

xoxo
I M N S

Where did ALL that go

Random thoughts clouding my mind at this point.
Trust me, it aint good.
I dont think anyone could possibly understand how I feel right now.
Its indescribable where you don't like whats happening but you got nothing to do with it.
And also, you cant do shit about it.
That's really fucked up.
Somehow I just feel like getting a snort of something and go to sleep.
Thats where you cant afford to think of anything.

I wonder....

Why do people like to make things so complicated when things can be much simple.
Why do people listen and behave based on their instincts when they don't know what lies between the truth.
Why do people keep grudges for so long and just cant let go.
Why do people react based on their emotions and regret right after that.
ALL the why's and no answers to it.

Plain simple, cos we're just human.
We think differently, act differently.
If not all we will be are just robots with no emotions.
Think the same do the same.No excitements and dramas where it leads to, NO LIFE.

Sometimes i just cant help it but to think again and again,
What is wrong and what is right?
Are there even such things?
How selfish can one be, how naif can one be.
Wouldnt it be easier if you just let the bygones be bygones.
Yet, another wishful thinking.
Aint easy i know.
I'm not even in any position to fucking comment on this.
So yeah, ignore me. I think alot and way further than London.
Cant help it.
Whatever it is, i wish you all the best, I miss us and I hope things will clear up in time for everyone.*fingers crossed*

We will all grow up someday and looking back at what has happened might even sound like joke.
Whatever, its part of EFIL. no two ways bout that.
Take care and good night.

xoxo
I M N S

Stress?

Hello, I'm still fucking alive.
A-M-A-Z-I-N-G weiii...
After shitloads of school work, I thought I was gonna die.
Its really depressing... : (
For the record, I still have:

#1. FTV tutorial assignment

#2. Take home assignment ( exam)

#3. Financial Management Revision questions

#4. Marketing report and powerpoint slides

#5. The presentation itself to the client

and when are they due?

friggin Thursday and Friday!! and wait, today's a wednesday!!

how can i possibly finish it all in time? I have no clue. God Bless me tq.

If only facebook and online blogs dont exist.Bahhh.*wishful thinking*
Then i guess i'll have ALL the time to complete everything in time.
Sigh .....
Somehow i feel ppl cursing me from far away too.

The only thing that made my day this week was,

HD's in 3 assignments!! hard work does pay off dont they? hmmm.

And after friday, swear to God I'll drink like a fish in the sea, boom boom shake shake like a monkey saw banana.
yes will do will do.
And not to mention I miss me shallow soulmate havent seen her for ages i am just kidding its just 5 days but it feels like bloody 10 years i miss her cb face and retarded laugh not to mention her spastic actions too i got a feeling if shes reading this she would be smiling 10 seconds ago but not anymore now it feels like she wants to swallow me alive dont be mad me love you muahahaha!

AND I MISS LEONG TOO!like alottttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt!!cookie jarrr * ; )

k times running out.ZHOI KIN.

xoxo
I M N S

READ ME SOULMATE

STEFANIE LANGSAT DY AW

IS

CURRENTLY

TRYING

HER

VERY

BEST TO

GOOGLE

MY BLOG.

Try harder sweetie ;) u can do it!!

Thats Langsat in the middle * stupido*

feel the love leh? nyehehehe.

xoxo

I M N S

That Adrenaline Rush

Lemme share a lil something about myself with you
I like pain.Like alot of pain.
Its hard to precisely describe how i feel when the pain is there but all i know is,
I feel the adrenaline rush, yes, thats the word.
That prolly explains why am so in love with body art and piercings.
I got like so many holes on my ears until i notice it was getting pretty fugly
Therefore i took it all off !
And also, i'm afraid that it would start to sag.like come on...
boobs sag when their too heavy dont they?!
My tattoo experience was good cos the pain was..hmmm
quite layan lah i can say..it feels like..the sound of it.
Not a tad of pain until when it comes to the end where Julian poured alcohol on it..
and you'll feel the stinging sensation which is
FUCKING SOONG!! pain yes but more to the satisfaction felt inside.Bloody orgasmic.
I know i sound like some psychotic person right now some say SM wtf.
I'm not lah.Tiu.
Until i decided to pierce my eye brows but my mum wouldn't allow me to.
therefore the tongue, as a rebound :)
Plus, my soulmate said something bout we're not suppose to do anything to the face cos it'll prolly change your luck or something. which i truly believe.
So yeah the tongue.
The process was pretty freaky cos there wasn't any antiseptic or whatsoever to apply b4 doing it. It was just, cleaning it, pulling it out, *tighten it* and BAM! there goes the needle.
And not to mention the needle was pretty huge.
I did mine @ Zoo Body Art, Sg Wang.Pretty professional i can say.Very clean as well.
Th healing process took about 1 month.No eggs no seafood no oral contact.
Easy, no?
I still rmb the conversation right after piercing when myself and friends were so fucking hungry ...
Landed in Delicious @ MV

Sher: Eh so what u wanna eat
Me: PASTA!
Sher: U crazy ah eat soup lah
Me: No man fucking hungryyy!

I ended up ordering a ceaser salad and it took me 10 bloody minutes to finish up
ONE FUCKING LEAF.yeah you got that right.ONE FUCKING ROMAINE LETTUCE!

Therefore yours truly could only stare at the food and drink water
HENG AHHHH

And also pretend not to listen to the rest when they go

"NO OFFENCE WEI BUT THE PASTA DAMNMOTHAFUCKING GOOD"

"yeah i know" * middle finger* thanks ah.i love you all.

Not to mention there was also some speech problem for me sigh.
I got a friend name Marshella and apparently she was...MAHEILAA for the day.
Sorry lahhhh chi lei kan mahhhh!!!
So that was basically it. :)

OK i'll stop babbling now. Crap too much.Back to work.

xoxo
I M N S

I cant wait

Short post as i'm running out of time.
I CANT WAIT!! yes, thats the magic word.!
Friday it is but will just have to double up the studying period before that -_-'
hate that stuff.
And apparently, this will be the last week of the entire semester.
How time flies :(
I'll be graduating * fingers crossed *
and yes, i miss you booze. alot alot alot hell damn alot!

I M N S fucking off to bed. till then :)

Xoxo
I M N S

Its All a Blank

Its all a blank, the title says it all.
The thoughts are filled up but yet there are no actions taken.
Its like facing the finals when your not even prepared.
Therefore, its all a blank.
yeah what the fuck am I even talking about.
Sometimes it feels as if I cant always be the good person. But then again, if i ever go ahead, its would be like a stab in her chest.
It would sound like a betrayal to her, although its not even close.
Just the fact that i would not have the balls to confront her if this really happen.
So many WHAT IF'S to think about and sometimes you get people saying...
SO WHAT?!WHY WOULD YOU EVEN GO THINKING THAT FAR AHEAD?!
well, its easy to say if your not in the situation I can tell.
So then maybe I should just for go it...
Then will i be happy? maybe, maybe not or not even close. who knows anyway.
So yeah, thanks and goodbye to YOU.

xoxo
I M N S