sometimes i feel mad at myself for being such an ass.
sometimes i wonder why i never tried giving you what i could.
sometimes i really regret the fact that i made you wait and all i do is, nothing.
sometimes i hate it when i cant express how i feel towards you.
All and all, things are not easy for me. How should I handle you when I cant even handle my own feelings.
I have been trying to deny facts that are claimed true by others. I tried to make everything seem normal when it comes to us but the more I try, the more I come to realize that, your not just a friend.
I really dont wanna repeat my mistakes by fucking you upside down. I really dont.
At the same time, i dont know how to make myself someone reliable cos i'm not.
I dont do commitments. I know its not fair and it's too early to say this cos I havent been into a proper one but somehow instincts just told me so. Previous incidents? Lets not go there shall we? All i know is, there's no one to blame but myself.
I dont wanna play with your feelings anymore. I never did.
Lets just pretend that nothing has ever happened. I am really capable of doing only that.
Know what, fuck me.
Say goodbye to feelings.
Say goodbye to complications.
Say goodbye to everything bout you.
Say hello to goodbye....
xoxo
-I.M.N.S-
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